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As my previous "Friends Only" post is definitely very much outdated, I decided to have a completely overhauled one. So here are some bits and bops about Yours Truly to give y'all a little overview. I am fluent in sarcasm and profanity, so if excessive swearing and an overuse of "oh for fuck's sake!" (as well as F-bombs on a daily basis) aren't your thing, don't even consider adding me. I come with so much emotional baggage that I need a whole ass transport plane for everything. I also have a VERY dark sense of humor, especially when it comes to my struggles with mental health (see below), so if that isn't your cup of tea, then best consider carefully. Ye be warned!
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THE MAIN QUEST:
healing from years of abuse (mental, emotional, verbal, narcissistic), gaslighting, and a major breakdown in 2010 I never fully recovered from. As of 2022, I am officially on disability pension. Not the way I imagined my life to turn out, but here we are. The diagnoses are depression, anxiety, fatigue, and POTS (which is a nasty left-over from C0v!d, sadly). Unfortunately, this is a very loooooong and messy journey, but also, healing never is a straight line. There are set-backs, road blocks, detours, but also the occasional comebacks.
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THE SIDE QUESTS:
aka the hyperfixations and fandoms that keep me going are all things TOM CRUISE and updating my little (online) archive with articles and clippings, dating from 1983 until now. I know that his ass is problematic af, but do I look like I care? The man's made some awesome movies, and no, I am not fond of that goddamn cult that brainwashed him. I have studied him, his life and all to a great deal for the past couple of years and will continue to do so and I know perfectly well how they got their claws into him and why he cannot get out anymore. If you just wanna come here and tell me how he's an abuser whatsoever, chances are you won't get far here.
The other major hyperfixation of ESPECIALLY 2026 is all things Cold War. It's a very fascinating era of history, and as a bonus, I happen to live in THE city that is THE symbol of the Cold War - Berlin. This was essentially triggered off with my fascination for JFK and his assassination. "Ich bin ein Berliner!" Nuff said.
I've thus read a lot of history stuff lately, not just about the Cold War, but also the Middle East (also to understand the Palestinian side of the story better).
Speaking of history: I am also fascinated with the Knights Templar, Free Masons, al-Andalus (Spain before the Reconquista), espionage, and a lot of subjects that aren't really taught in (German) schools.
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I am queer, very much on the left side of the political spectrum, flying solo, and the most important person in my life is my godson whom I love to bits. He has his own tag on here, and I hear that folks love the stories about him. :) I'm extremely passionate about things that I am interested in and am always happy to share my knowledge. Which is why my Aunt at times says she'd have me as her "Phone a Friend" lifeline should she ever participate in "Who Wants to be a Millionaire?"
I studied British Literature at university (as well as Film Analysis and American Studies), and wrote my M.A. thesis about "Society and Gender Roles in Dystopian Fiction". By no means did I think we'd be witnessing a bunch of the stuff described in those books a good 20 years later in real time ... to this day, I have a knack for Dystopias.
I love sports, too, and while I grew up on the sidelines of local footie / soccer pitches as my late Dad was an amateur coach, I have sworn off from the sport in its largest part. For several reasons. However, it's still SO ON when it comes to the NFL, NHL, MLB, and Olympics.
Music wise, you can find me either listening to 80s music, movie soundtracks, or various kinds of Metal and Metalcore. There is one band that is very dear to me, and that is BURY TOMORROW. They came into my life some time in 2012 when someone linked their "An Honourable Reign" video on Twitter (nope, we're not calling it X on here, kthxbye). I liked what I was hearing, bought the album ...and innocently went to see them live for the first time on April 4, 2014. Little did I know what I was getting myself into ... they're my LORDS AND SAVIORS, and known as BAND! on here.
Well then ...
Still interested in friending me? Fine. :) Welcome to the Shit Show, fasten your seatbelt, the ride's begun!
